One year ago today...

Last year on December 30th, Brandon and I did our last IUI fertility treatment. It was our 6th attempt and we decided this would be our last. It was just too expensive and emotionally draining and the dr. told us we should move onto something else if this didn't work. It was by far the most painful procedure out of the 6 and I was hopeful that if we 'gave up', this time would be successful. I found out on January 12th that this time had failed also. One of the worst moments in my life. It was a start of thinking a different way - we looked up information on adoption even though that path never felt right to me. I had given up hope on ever becoming pregnant. Little did I know that 17 days later, little Preston would start growing. Oh man, - it still brings me to tears thinking of all we went through and where we are now.

Here's some Christmas pictures of our little miracle man:

^Santa Baby^

^Love this face!^

^"Stop kissing me!!!"^

2 months old!!

Preston turned 2 months old yesterday - that sounds so much older than 8 weeks. He's such a cutie pie and doesn't look like a newborn anymore. He recently found his tongue which is so funny to watch. He's slept through the night several times now and that's such a treat for mom and dad!!

Bad mommy!!!

In a desperate attempt to get my sweet little Preston to stop crying and to go to sleep, I plopped him down on the bed, tightly wrapped a blanket around his wiggly arms, propped pillows around him so he wouldn't fall over, stuffed a pacifier in his mouth (he hates them!) and turned the radio on and started signing loudly - and badly! - while I folded laundry. He immediately quieted down and while sucking on the pacifier, fell asleep. I know this was wrong of me, but it worked and I may be onto something. Bad mommy!!!